Staying Alive

I keep reading and hearing about super healthy people who die while running marathons. I know someone who knew someone really well (and super-healthy) who just dropped dead of a heart attack at the end of a recent marathon.

So, in the spirit of trying to stay alive for the Husband and the Baby, I am not going to run a marathon anymore.

However, a HALF-marathon is not out of the question, and seems do-able in my mind.

I am writing my goal down for running: run and finish the SLC Half-Marathon in April. If I don't write this down, I will never keep myself accountable. I want to run 2 5ks and a 10k before I take on the endeavor.

Thank you, Cristina for giving me motivation. Also, thank you, Baby, for putting my body out of shape and giving me even MORE motivation to run.

Motivation? WHERE ARE YOU???

Ok, spring is finally here, but where is my movitation to run outside?? Come back to me!!!

SPRING WHERE ARE YOU????

I want to run outside.

But not in the snow.

Score updates:

Utah--10 million. Spring--0.

Tracie @ Gym- 10. Tracie @ Home Being Lazy- 10.

Tawnie is my best friend and I love her and we're awesome.

I just got off the phone with my best friend Tawnie Soelberg McCaa. I love talking to her-- it always brightens my day.

I am moving home in April to finish the last part of my college degree-- THE INTERNSHIP. And Tawnie and I are going to train for a half-marathon!! I'm gonna do it!! I really am!! I am so excited!! I love my life!!

First item of business: find a half-marathon in Southern California in July or August...

Gym Rat

I go to the gym about 5 times a week. There is no way I'm going to run in 20 degree weather and snow. And I found a yoga class to go to 2 times a week and I love it! And I feel really good about myself.

That's about it for now.

And I'm NOT running a marathon this year...

New Goal

My roommate/best friend Brittany and I have decided that whenever we get the impulse to shop, we will go work out instead.

And if we do this, let me tell you, we are going to be in the best shape of our lives in less than 2 weeks.

And people don't believe us that we are going to do this, but it's TRUE! (Take THAT, Eric!)

NO MORE SHOPPING!!

I have enough clothes. I HAVE enough clothes. I have ENOUGH clothes. I have enough CLOTHES.

Live Your Life

My friend Jessica is on the cross country team at BYU and runs 8-10 miles a DAY. She is my running idol. I want to do that. Or at least work up to running 3-5 miles a DAY. Right now, I run 3-2-2-break-3-5 on M-Tu-W-Th-F-Sa. That's only 15 miles a WEEK. I want to run at least 20 miles a week. I can do better. I will do better.

My new inspiration to run is "Live Your Life" by T.I. feat. Rihanna. Save your life. Please Listen. Please Run.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

What Am I Doing With My Life?

I can't find the motivation to run more than 3 miles at a time. School plus work plus work plus social life equals no time and no energy. How am I going to run that marathon?? I need serious help.

I love running. But I don't love the higher elevation. I can now climb the RB stairs without almost dying of oxygen deprivation. Yay for me.

Early Bird or Night Owl Running?? and WHERE IS MY I-POD?????

I'm trying to decide the best time to work out. I'm headed back to school in Utah in about a week, and I need to nail down my schedule now. I have time almost everyday at 3 in the afternoon to go run. But I also have a dance class at 7 AM on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so it would be easy to get up around 5:45 and go work out. But I also like running at night. But I have two night classes. But I also like running early in the mornings. AND I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND MY I-POD. Horrors of all horror, what if I don't find it by the time I leave next week?? How will I RUN????????

I seriously think my sister took it....

Or maybe I should just clean my room.

I Got Schooled by My Little Brother.

I came home from a photo shoot yesterday at around 8 PM and I hadn't eaten dinner yet. My family had chicken enchiladas and 1) I try my hardest not to eat chicken. 2) They didn't save me any (meannnnnn). Which meant I was on my own for dinner. And we didn't have any macaroni and cheese. So what to do, what to do? I really wanted a veggie sandwich from Subway or Quiznos. I asked my little brother Brad (15 1/2 and thinks he knows everything) if he wanted any (in an attempt to butter him up so I could use his laptop). And he was like, are you running? Because if you're really running, you wouldn't be eating crap. Because you would feel it. (He runs cross country, he should know) And I was like... Ahhhhhhhhhhh. Dang it. You're right. I shouldn't be eating out at all. Peanut butter and honey sandwiches for LIFE!!!!!! And fruits. And vegetables.

BTW, whatever happened to Peter Pan Peanut Butter? That stuff is the BEST. PEANUT BUTTER. EVER.

Watching the Olympics makes me want to run

I'm motivated to run just by watching the Olympics and thinking, "I can totally do that".

When I watch something that inspires me, it provokes me to pursue said inspirational "something". (Ex: Dancing with the Stars/So You Think You Can Dance. I've signed up for many a dance class after watching episodes of previously mentioned shows.) So after watching the Olympics night after night, I have a hankering to run, swim, and tumble. And thus, I am out of my non-running rut.

I still haven't found my iPod. I've been using my sister's, which does not have quality music (Aqua and Soulja Boy, EW).

Come back to me iPod! Come back!

HELP

Can someone please give me motivation to run? I already tried writing down my goals. I already tried yelling at myself. I already tried lacing up my running shoes. But it's August, school starts in less than a month, and all I want to do is curl up on my parents bed and watch Season 1 of Burn Notice over and over. I can't stop. I can't.

Sand = Run

Every time I walk on sand, I get the sudden urge to run. It feels like a trampoline under my feet. Saturday night, when I was walking along the beach at Newport, I practically ran down the surf. Invigorating for me, annoying for my friend who had to constantly tell me to slow down. I didn't even notice I was going so fast. There is something about sand that just makes me want to go, go, go. I think I get an adrenaline high just from being at the beach.

Maybe if the whole L.A. Marathon was on the beach, I would do really well.

Still running, sort of. I've lagged because my friend is getting married and I've been helping with that whole process and it just makes me too tired to do anything else. I am running tonight along the beautiful bluffs of Bakersfield, CA.

No Diet Coke today! Fruit for breakfast, salad for lunch. Now what am I supposed to eat for dinner?

Should I really drink something that reacts this way to Mentos?

Brooke's comment on my previous post got me wondering what EXACTLY am I drinking?

The ingredients in Diet Coke are listed in order of greatest to least amount:

1. Carbonated Water (negligible cause of dental erosion)
2. Caramel Color (carmelized sugar)
3. Aspartame (CARCINOGENIC TOXIN, turns into formaldehyde once it digests in your body, took over 8 times and a change *ahem, cheaters* in the board of the FDA to finally get approved by the FDA)
4. Phosphoric Acid (It provides a "tangy" taste, and, being a mass-produced chemical, is available cheaply and in large quantities, used to acidify cola)
5. Potassium Benzoate (to protect taste. In combination with ascorbic acid (vitamin C), sodium and potassium benzoate may form benzene, a known carcinogen)
6. Natural Flavors (the essential oil, oleoresin, essence or extractive, protein hydrolysate, distillate, or any product of roasting, heating or enzymolysis, which contains the flavoring constituents derived from a spice, fruit or fruit juice, vegetable or vegetable juice, edible yeast, herb, bark, bud, root, leaf or any other edible portions of a plant, meat, seafood, poultry, eggs, dairy products, or fermentation products thereof, whose primary function in food is flavoring rather than nutritional.)
7. Citric Acid (Excessive consumption is capable of eroding the tooth enamel. Close contact to the eyes can cause a slight burning sensation, and may cause loss of sight.)
8. Caffeine (bitter white crystalline xanthine alkaloid that acts as a psychoactive stimulant drug and a mild diuretic)

But I still loooooove it. Sonic's Large Diet Coke with vanilla and extra ice (because Sonic has the BEST ice). $2.03 normally, $1.02 during Happy Hours 2-4 PM ~~Pure Bliss~~ Pure, rotten, carcinogenic, acidic, tangy, toxic bliss.

I'm going on 48 hours without one.......... *Sigh*........ no more legal psychoactive stimulants........

Cinnamon Toast Crunch is rotting my digestive system, and I don't care.

(Sing title to tune of "Jimmy Cracked Corn").

I can't help it. Every time my mom buys Cinnamon Toast Crunch for my brother Bradley, I eat it non stop. It's gone within 48 hours. And then my stomach hurts all night long, thanks to the over-abundance of trans fats, genetically modified starches and sugars, and synthetic preservatives. Does any of that sound healthy or appealing or ethically MORAL to you? No wonder it's harder to run after eating CTC for breakfast.

Since I became a pescatarian in March '08, I've:

1. Stopped eating at fast food restaurants (EW GROSS, everyone read Fast Food Nation NOW)

2. Try not to eat at restaurants in general unless it's SUSHI (mmm sushi)

3. Increase my intake of fish, fruits, veggies, whole grains, and herbs.

4. Tried really hard to delete processed foods from my diet (like processed cheese... ugh... I'm not even going to list all the ingredients in THAT)... but Cinnamon Toast Crunch gets me every time.

I'm never going to reach my running potential unless I eliminate all processed foods from my diet. Let me write down a few more things in my Book of Decisions:

1. I promise to eat raw foods for the next month to prepare for my first race.

2. I promise to drink as much water as I can every day (between 60-75 oz).

3. I promise to never miss a day of running because I don't feel like it due to eating yummy processed foods (mmmm cinnamon rolls!!!!!!).

4. I promise to eat sushi once a week and to try and incorporate fish into my diet at least 4 days a week.

5. (I can't believe I'm going to write this) STOP DRINKING DIET COKE... gasp...I'm having a hard time breathing right now...Oh, my head already hurts. But Diet Coke is full of CRAP. Yummy, yummy crap, but crap nonetheless.

Okay, I must now focus all my energy on cleansing my inner body through my detoxifying/fish diet. And when I say diet, I mean lifestyle, not "get slim quick then yo yo back to original weight". Lifestyle, people, lifestyle.

Mary Just Saved My Life!!

I love my co-worker Mary at V.S. because she wanted extra shifts this week and she just took my shift for tonight!! I can run! I can run!

Tracie, I PROMISE

I'm an ambitious, goal-oriented person... but why can't I get out of bed in the mornings anymore? What is my problem? Why can't I get up before 7? I was doing fine all of June, and then July hit with the heat, and now I'm a sluggish sleepy grumpy head every morning. Even after a bowl of Grape Nuts! (mmm-mmm Grape Nuts with milk & sugar, warmed in the microwave... heaven)

I work all day today. I work from 8-5 at my day job and then I have a shift at Victoria's Secret from 5:30-10. You tell me where in there I have time to run 1.75 miles. Go ahead. Tell me.

I AM SO ANNOYED. With myself. Why can't I get up when my alarm clock goes off at 5:30a? Why do I hit snooze and turn the other way? I'm gonna die when I run at Yokuts Park a week from Saturday.

I guess it's a bad habit I've been cultivating for the past month. I need to get out of this sleep-in slut rut I'm currently habitating.

Help? Motivation to get out of bed? What can I do?

I think I make too many allowances for myself. I break promises to myself. Last night, I promised myself I would get out of bed and go running. But when 5:30a came, the alarm clock rang, and I said, Oh Tracie, you're working 13.5 hours today, you really need the sleep instead. And I promptly rolled over and fell right back asleep. I'm REALLY good at rationalizing why I don't need to get up when the alarm clock rings. I think the snooze button is the worst invention ever because it's an enabler to my procrastination.

I seriously need to take seriously the promises I make to myself.

Here's what I'm going to write in my mental Book of Decisions:
I WILL get up with the alarm clock.
I WON'T EVER hit the snooze button anymore.
I WILL get up and run because getting in shape for my first 5k is more important than 20 or 30 more minutes of sleep.

That's what Diet Coke is for, right?

want to be a skinny b?

I'm the kind of person who needs a good slap in the face (figuratively speaking) to get motivated about something.

Want to motivate me to exercise? Tell me I need to lose weight (Thanks, B. And bathroom scale, too).

Want to motivate me to eat better? Tell me about the completely disgusting and immoral process of America's slaughterhouses (Thank you, Fast Food Nation).

Want to motivate me to clean? Tell me I need to lose weight (or something that will invoke a similar anxiety attack... anxiety gives me the energy to clean clean clean or run run run).

I wasn't sure what to expect when I bought Skinny B**** (Target impulse buy... aren't they all?). Imagine my surprise and joy when the whole time they're telling me about the disgusting and immoral practices of the food industry in America and to exercise and stop eating CRAP over and over and over.

This book is not for the soft at heart. I wouldn't recommend reading it unless you're some sort of exercise masochist or healthy food fiend.

I guess my obsessions with food and exercise are finally out in the open. Oops.

Running Update: Slept in til 7 again (SO mad!). Running tonight after work on the super-steep hills, 'the bluffs' by my house, then going on the 1.75 mile run. Wahoo.

TTFDOR!!/ Bad, Heather, Bad

~~~Thank Goodness For Days-Of-Rest~~~

I accidentally slept in today. Good thing it's Thursday. Thursdays are a rest day on my 5k training schedule.

I always feel so LAZY on rest days. And even lazier now, since I slept in til 7. ("It is well to be up before daybreak, for such habits contribute to health, wealth, and wisdom.", Aristotle)

I work tonight from 6 to 10pm at Victoria's Secret . Now THERE's some motivation to work out. I'm going to come home and do some yoga/meditation and then go to bed so I can get UP tomorrow. (I've been working since 8 this morning, and going til 5)

I resolve now to actually get up when my alarm clock goes off at 6 AM. I WILL get up at 6 AM. Tracie, you WILL get up at 6 AM.

Just in case you didn't know, you, too can become an early riser and get up right away when your alarm clock goes off.

I would like to send an un-thank-you to Heather West who sent us home with extra carrot cake from Jessica's bridal shower... that was NOT good for someone who has no will-power when it comes to cakes covered in cream cheese frosting.

I'm Just Not Satisfied

So it's 4:25 pm, approximately 10 hours since I ran this morning... and all I really want to do is put on my running clothes, lace up my new cute pink running shoes, and head out into the Bakersfield heat because I think I can do better than what I ran this morning. I ran 1.75 miles in 14 minutes. I don't feel like I got a work out at all. Yeah, maybe at 6:44am when I finished, I felt like I got a work out. But after sitting at a desk all day, slaving away on my email and blog(s), eating granola and nuts, I feel lazy, like I haven't done anything at all. What is wrong with me??? Maybe, just maybe, I will run again after SYTYCD. But I am doing my super-intense cross training tomorrow... what to do, what to do?